What about me?(2)

From the many entries talking nothing but moi,you can guess how much I love myself.

Oh..really?

Actually I know I am suck into this whole evolution of me thingy.
I am the tough cookie at work.

We all know it's very tough to close deals approaching year end.
The demand and supply of this (recruitment) market simply doesn't match!
We are facing the suffocation and the woes of never finding candidates good enough for the positions needed.

Tracy(being the senior and top sales notcher) recently clinched a deal for NTU at a base salary of $28oo something.
(We can only charge a percentage base on the basic salary,not gross)
Wow!

Honestly in this trade,all that needs in the end in luck and fate.
The rest are your own efforts and skills.

I was kept hanging on the thread since Monday though things look promising enough.
Today,I sort of officially closed a $60,000/annum or simply put $5ooo base salary.

Frankly speaking,I am very glad.But the excitement toned down by today.
I admitted that I did pray very hard for everything to be smooth sail and I am still keeping my fingers cross till the lucky gal starts work. (she needs a month notice.)

This is what I wanna achieve!
To be fair,it's not very easy to close a high flyer deal just like that.
Usually we would be thankful for every successful deal and be very happy for salary coming to $2ooo.

My highest record was $2000 and I can only charged $400 for it.
All thanks to the dumb contract previously.

Thus this $5000 is really a breakthrough.
And by far,I dont think recently any of my collegues managed to come close for a candidate's pay like that.

So I am one damn lucky gal!
*beams*

Put all short term happiness aside,I know this is really nothing.
Every higher record makes the next one tougher.

And this pushed my desire to surge.

I know what my goal is after I got accustomed to all these recruitment sales thingy.
I wanna achieve what my colleagues did in a much faster time.
And I do not see how it is not possible.
Patience, I have.
Humble,I know.
So yea,=) it's only positive aggressiveness.

So back to me...

I evolved to someone who stands more firmer than she can before.

Thank you for the number of ind-uhviduals that I met,I am no longer soft and relenting.
You can start counting the number of people that I have to "scold" over the phone..haha.
Or rather be so damn firm that they know they are not in a winning position as opposed to me.

Well,I wasnt like this but I learned it.

The more I learned things the hard way,the more I feel that I am losing.

I missed things when everything is simpler.
I badly wanna go back to my childhood days and I wont waste chance learning to whine more to my parents,instead of choosing the path that I am leading now.

I wanted to protect myself too much that I take the hard path.

A double edge sword.

Sigh.

I know whichever way I swing my sword,it's gonna hurt one arm.

Sometimes I just feel so lonely inside but again,dont meddle.

Happy...Friday?
Oh,I gotta work tml!

Blah.